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Dunno if it's just the summer blahs or what, but I've been feelin' mighty useless lately. It's as though I'm slippin' or something. Don't seem to be thinking as clearly as I used to, can't keep myself busy - I just can't seem to stay focused on anything. Hell, it's been a couple months since I quit at Oak Ridge - maybe it's just withdrawal. Come October, this'll be the first year since I started my doctorates that I haven't put out some piece of publication, and I guess that's kinda been heavy on my mind, too.

Ain't like I don't love it here. Guess I just get to wonderin' sometimes what I'll have to show for it when it's all over. I like winning 'n hate losing as much as the next guy, but what's all this really about, anyhow? When it all goes down - hell, I guess I just wonder sometimes where I'll be, 'sides bein' richer and outta work. Dunno what I'll have to show for all of it.

Hell, I dunno. Maybe I just need a new hobby. What do you all think?